It's not his fault either. It was the war and the price we had to pay... if He didn't focus his anger on me it would have been Huaisang.

I never want to. Here and the place I was in I can be a criminal and a whore but I can be myself. I do not have to twist myself for a world that would only devour me, for men who only see me as a tool. Despite everything I have been happier after my death than I was as a cultivator.

Honestly, I don't even hate Huaisang for what he did. I understand the despair and loneliness he must have faced alone. I only wish he left a-Su out of it. But I know why he had to.