[did he like it? what an innocent little bombshell of a question to ask. Olivine's expression doesn't change much, but if Sylvain is watching that closely, he might see the slightest twitch of it. discontent, guilt, uncertainty.]

It's been a challenge at times, I admit. The church has very strict and rigid ideals, and I don't want to disappoint anyone. [that word is telling in its own right.] But the people seem to have faith in our God and in me, so I pray that I am doing right by them. I always wanted to help people, anyway, so in some ways it's no different to when I was younger.

I'm just... a little more learned, a little stronger. I've been to a few monasteries in my life, as well—they seem like sturdy places to grow up.

[especially if you like rules, which he does not... but he would never admit that aloud.]