【 Thank you for choosing the Golden Peacock, 5-star resort and casino. You are currently registered as a WILDCARD in our system.
We are pleased to announce that several films have begun production in the resort! All guests are encouraged to participate as actors and crew during this time. Two highly anticipated blockbusters are part of the filming block and will have an opening night premiere at the newly renovated Hatchbox Theater.
We would also like to extend a gentle warning to all actors. New tabloids and journalists have snuck into the Peacock alongside production, so please be cautious of aggressive reporters. We would hate to see our beloved guests embroiled in public scandal.
Please look forward to your debut on the silver screen and all of the new artistic content soon available for your viewing pleasure! 】
HONEYWAGONS
A STAR'S WELCOME
ACTOR RESUME
WELLA WARBLER
Height: 4 inches Weight: 5 oz Age: 3 years (24 in bird years!) Eye color: black Hair color: yellow
TYPECAST & SUITABLE ROLES
• animal sidekick • emotional guide • damsel in distress
KINKS & FETISHES
• berry licking • mating dances • hardcore bdsm
SPECIAL SKILLS
• singing • flying fast • speed sudoku
COSTUME DEPARTMENT
GET INTO CHARACTER
GRAB A GIG
FIND YOUR BIG BREAK
LORD OF THE WINGS
AN EPIC (AND SEXY) JOURNEY
【 Once upon a time, in a magical land far, far away...
The Lord of the Wings, a massive dragon with no equal, demanded a bride tribute from all of the kingdoms across the continent. Every month each province was required to send their most beautiful men and women to become the dragon's next bride(s). Ever greedy, the dragon was not satisfied with having one bride. Not with twelve brides, nor two hundred brides. The dragon always demanded more. The number of hot people around to bang dwindled. Things were looking grim.
Soon, a group of brave warriors gathered to travel the lands and slay this dragon. They enjoyed adventures of fucking their way through sirens, fucking their way though the faeries, and fucking their way through the mage school and beastmen tribes. They reached the dragon's crystal lair where the dragon, who took beautiful humanoid form, approached them.
The dragon promised that if any warrior could satisfy them sexually, they would return all of the brides to their homes. Each warrior took a turn trying to satisfy the dragon — but only with their efforts combined in one massive orgy was the dragon finally satisfied.
All of the brides were released and the warriors moved into the crystal lair to live a loving polyamorous relationship with the dragon. All was well. The end. 】
STAR WARBLERS
A THRILLING (AND SEXY) SPACE OPERA
【 Once upon a time, in a galaxy, far away...
The Palm Warblers and the Pine Warblers, two different legions of the massive Warbler fleet, began to battle. Whenever their ships would meet in space they would fight with the winner taking prisoners of war. After one such battle, a captured Captain of the Palm Warbler legion held in prison met a Lieutenant of the Pine Warbler tribe. After some rivalry, the two fell deeply in love.
They had a ton of kinky prison sex. However, the two were not satisfied with fucking between prison bars. They wanted to properly marry. But how could they with their two legions at war?
They each gathered friends and more sex was had between all. More matches between the Palms and the Pines happened, leading to even more kinky space sex. Bolstered by friendship and newfound fetishes, they gripped their laser guns and seized the science lab where some important keystone gemstone was being examined and researched by space scientists. This stone was very important for the future breeding of the Warbler race.
By holding the lab hostage, the ship's Commander put down their weapons and handed over the keys. The Palm Captain and the Pine Lieutenant held hands as they steered the ship off to find a new planet where they could live in peace together. The war between the two tribes ended because of good sex. All was well. The end. 】
SHORT FILMS
THE GOLDEN PEACOCK SUPPORTS THE ARTS
【 Ladies and Gentlemen!
Peacock Productions is pleased to announce the following short erotic films. Actors interested in participating in filming are welcome to arrive on set to shoot at any time. Various accommodations are available depending upon actor comfort.
FILMS • ALIENS PROBED ME!
• ARRANGED MARRIAGE WEDDING NIGHT
• BIG TIDDY NUN NEEDS PUNISHING
• BIRD IN THE BUSH
• EXORCIST KIDNAPPED BY DEMON LOVER
• FELINE ATTRACTION
• GUARD TOPS MASTER IN BED
• HORNY NERD CREAMPIE
• HOT FOR TEACHER
• INCUBUS SEDUCES SLUTTY PRIEST
FILMS • JEALOUS SPOUSE DISCIPLINES LOVER
• LONELY TENTACLES WANT LOVE
• MAGES GONE WILD
• PIZZA DELIVERY BOY IS HOT
• PLANTS HUNGER FOR SEX
• SAMURAI PLEDGES AND SERVES
• THEY WERE BOTH BOTTOMS
• TOP ON TOP ACTION
• VAMPIRE’S AROUSING BITE
• VIRGIN’S FIRST TIME
• WHOLESOME COUPLE MAKING LOVE
• WOLFMAN TAKES A MATE
… and many, many, many more! We look forward to working with you. 】
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The pleasure is all mine, [ Keita says with a smile as he takes a seat on the settee next to Layla. ] You look lovely.
[ Not that he has a concept of "old Hollywood," per se, but he does know a little about being well-dressed for a night out. It's certainly clear that Layla knows what suits her and is willing to dress to her strengths, although Keita is far too polite to be obvious about his appreciation.
It feels a little odd to scoot back onto the cushion far enough that his legs extend in front of him, but once Keita leans back against the cushions he can't deny that the seat is... actually rather comfortable. ]
You're probably right about that, [ he says with a wry laugh. Keita hasn't opened the goodie bag yet, but he can see in his future-memories what it contains: a bottle of strawberry-flavored lubricant; a small bullet vibrator; and a silicone dildo. ] It is comfortable, though, if you'd like to relax a little. I promise no funny business unless you'd enjoy it.
( it isn't like she's unused to being complimented, but something about it coming from him with all of his politeness drew out an equally kind response from her. they had shared quite a close moment previously and it felt nice to be useful for once, a feeling that had lingered with her for sometime [until the next event that left her feeling utterly useless].
as he sat down next to her, she kept a soft smile on her face as she watched him, giving him all of her attention. given what they were going to watch, she most likely would be doing this the entire time but she was sure he wouldn't mind too much.
hopefully. )
Well if you don't mind, I will get comfortable.
( and almost on cue she began to kick her heels off towards the floor below her, swinging and pulling up the long ends of her dress onto the seat. given the awkward position of how it sat on her and the more reclined position of the chair, she was left with her legs somewhat exposed but it didn't quite matter to her. she had never been too prudish unless the other person made her feel bad about it.
at his next words though, she hummed in curiosity before she leaned in a bit closer to him, laughing at his words. )
Funny business? Oh no are you going to throw a bucket of popcorn at the screen if the film really sucks?
( she knew what he might have been angling at but frankly when nothing but sex surrounded them, she was okay with things going in whatever direction he wanted. if keita just wanted to laugh it up and have a good time, being playful and silly at the ridiculousness of all of this, then she'd go along. if he wanted to do as the resort wanted from them, she might not turn him down. regardless, she was here for a good time. )
[ The prospect of watching pornographic films with another person is... Well, Keita can appreciate the artistic nature(?) of some of these movies, and of course he'd participated to a certain extent, albeit largely running props or helping with costumes. But he doesn't find them as entirely titillating as he's sure some other members of the audience do, and for that reason is perfectly happy to give his full attention to Layla for the duration of the film, to spare them both the embarrassment of having to look.
Keita shifts to the side a bit to ensure Layla has room to situate herself on their shared chair-bed. Although he notes that the change in position has left her legs somewhat exposed, she doesn't seem too perturbed by it—and so Keita, reminding himself that this isn't 1884 and he doesn't need to be concerned so much with things like propriety, decides not to say anything either, although he's aware that there's a blanket draped over the armrest nearest him in case she gets cold. ]
Is that an option? [ he says with a smile, stretching an arm out along the cushion behind her. ] Do you know, I'm not sure I've ever had popcorn. Does it make a good projectile?
[ Around them, the lights dim, but Keita keeps his focus on Layla aside from a brief glance around just to see what the vibes are like. ]
Did you hold up all right over the last bit of excitement we had?
( oh sweet and innocent keita— if he wasn't annoyed by her dragging him into that little sight seeing adventure from before in her suite, surely he wouldn't mind all the little ideas that were filling up her mind. she was well aware he was from a vastly different point in time, but truthfully she had imagined by now he'd have experienced quite a bit of modern life. knowing now that he had never even indulged in popcorn before well...
she was making a little list in her mind of all the things she wanted to show him and experience with him. she was just painfully childish like that. )
Well sure it does, and it's so light and fluffy it couldn't possibly hurt anyone if it fell on them! It'd be like soft little buttery snowflakes!
( there seemed to be almost a sparkle surrounding her as she said that. )
Ah as for that well.... a lot of weird things happened for sure. I got stuck in my suite with Shanks, I comforted a lot of people, apparently they were hearing voices in their heads and I—
( and that's where she paused briefly, a deep blush taking over her face. she hadn't really shared this with anyone beyond red but thanks to that emotional wave all of those under the heart 'suit' felt, she had come to the realization that she either liked women romantically or she found them sexually attractive. she wasn't too sure on her feelings either way and wasn't even sure if she should share that with keita but....
given she came from a period of time where that was still considered taboo and she had never really had many female friends, she wasn't sure how things would come across. so she opted to keep things vague. )
Had some personal revelations thanks to that weird wave of emotions I felt at the end of everything. Apparently it happened to all of us with 'hearts'?
Then perhaps I will throw some, just for the novelty of the experience.
[ Indeed, over the months of his stay in the casino Keita has learned quite a lot about modern life—but certain things still require an introduction, at least, such as new food items. Popcorn just... hadn't been something that came up, it seems, although hearing it described as "soft buttery snowflakes" does make Keita wish he'd been introduced to it sooner.
He smiles at her explanation, pleased that for the most part, it seems to be positive. Of course, Keita is sure there were aspects of the previous month's horrorshow that would have been frightening indeed, but at least she came out of it with some good experiences too. ]
With Shanks? [ Keita says, warm. ] Well, there are certainly worse men to be stuck in a suite with. He strikes me as kind.
[ Comforting those who hear voices, too, is a noble use of her time. There's a moment there, too, where Layla teeters on the verge of a more thorough explanation, and for a moment both futures exist simultaneously in Keita's memory—but then she makes her decision, and whatever she was going to say melts away from Keita's awareness. ]
It did, yes. I'm a heart myself, in fact. [ And he definitely remembers that violent burst of emotion, followed by the excruciating empathic link that had taken several days to subside. ] I'm glad that you were unharmed, at least, however unusual or unpleasant the rest of the experience.
Okay next film the popcorn’s on me. I really want to show you how to do it right!
( among other things because now he’s become an unwitting pet project for her. )
Oh yes he’s a good friend, it’s because of him I actually started enjoying singing again.
( she hadn’t been too open about her own personal life and circumstances back home with anyone but him. his gentle assurance and free-spirited way of approaching situations and life was the kind of influence she needed.
in fact it was partially the reason why she felt so inspired to show keita such delightful sights of tokyo last time. paying it forward perhaps. )
Oh? You are? So you felt that right? Wasn’t it so weird? No voices in my head like the others but that wave of emotions….it made me cry like a baby for a while. I guess I should get used to it right?
Someone told me this place…likes to mess with everyone from time to time, right?
I'm pleased to hear that. Do you have plans to take up singing more often?
[ Their first conversation had to do with music, as Keita recalls. It was through that discussion that he came to know Layla was a singer, and to admit to his own relative inexperience as a pianist. It's nice to hear that she's enjoying herself again—Keita had sensed a bit of tension in her when it came to the subject of singing. ]
I did feel it, yes. It was... [ Keita pauses briefly, thinking of how to explain. Maybe he doesn't need to, since Layla experienced the same sensation, but it seems important that he choose the right words. ] I've only felt despair like that once before in my life. I hadn't hoped to repeat the experience.
[ It had felt like the moments before his death, relived. Keita sighs, then shakes his head briefly as if to dispel the thought. ]
That's true. Particularly for those of us with the hearts suit... I suppose the house thinks us particularly emotional, and enjoys playing with our feelings as a result.
Well first I have to actually follow through with this little plan I have, you know the one you saw on the network?
( she's still not sure how that worked exactly, her own frame of reference was the early yahoo message boards and email. still, she was finally feeling some level of enthusiasm and genuine interest in her own talents versus just a surface level dedication to it like she had in the past.
but as they spoke on about the effects of the previous event, she tuned in to him more closely, ignoring whatever sexual prolaticities were occurring on the screen behind them. )
Despair?
( now that was far different than what she had experienced. for some reason that wave of emotions had tapped into her own lack of friendships with women at the time, her budding ones here in the resort revealing to her she actually enjoyed women far more than she ever knew.
still they're talking about him and without a doubt she reached out to grab his hands, gently trying to comfort him. there was a time where she was called useless, selfish and unable to empathize with others but being here made her more gentle and mature. )
I think you're right. I didn't want to admit it but....I'm a very emotional person I'm just not...very good at handling it. I'm sorry that happened to you, what kind of despair did you feel?
( she's not trying to get too deep before a porno but here they were. )
[ Although being here has made Keita much more receptive to physical touch, it is still somewhat surprising when people initiate it so willingly. He remembers, though, that once before he had reacted in shock at Layla touching his hand, and that she had pulled away in response, so despite the split-second expression of surprise that crosses his face, he's quick to fold his fingers around hers in reassurance that he doesn't mind at all. ]
Perhaps we all felt a different sort of emotion, [ Keita muses. That's for the best—he's glad that Layla didn't have cause to feel pain like he felt.
He pauses briefly, with a small smile, and then says, ] Did I... mention to you before that I died in my own world, just before arriving here?
[ Although Keita can easily sort through decades' worth of memories of the future, he does sometimes forget what happened in the past. ]
I knew it was coming, and although I did all I could to prevent it, in the end it wasn't enough. I thought I had made my peace with it, but...
[ He pauses again. It's difficult to admit to these things, but Layla has been so open with him thus far that it feels only right that Keita make an effort to be open with her in return. ]
There was someone at home who I loved very much, and in the moments before my death I felt overcome by the knowledge that I would never see them again. And the house made me feel that despair again, I think. It was... not enjoyable.
( she's as surprised by her own instinctive reflexes as she is by the curling of his own fingers around her. in the mess of everything— the paparazzi, the acting, being pulled into being an adult actress unwittingly, she had forgotten his reaction to her touch before. she had touched many others since her tender encounter with keita and it had become so natural for her, far more than it ever was back home. still she doesn't pull from him or react in any way beyond just the softening of her gaze towards him, her attention fully on him.
the revelation came as a surprise to her, mainly because she hadn't thought about those strange and painful real world expectations— it was enough to make her briefly think about death here in the resort. soon though her focus came back to his words and his very obvious pain.
with a nervous swallow on her end, she thought about what to say and how to comfort him. she wasn't the best at these things, she often ran away from her own troubling emotions and threw temper tantrums when things didn't go her way. when her own father died she remembered just crying for days on end and hiding. this was truly testing her maturity levels in a way. still she had come to like and respect keita in the time she had known him and with a soft tilt of her head, she finally spoke. )
I can only imagine it wasn't. I should have....come to see you, or I would have if I had known you were also suffering from the effects of that.
( she didn't want to tell him she had been too busy discovering her own bisexuality but— )
I just hope you weren't alone, that you had a good friend to help you through that. If you didn't, then I'm sorry. You can tell me more about it, I'll listen.
( despite where they were and what was playing in the background. )
[ Just as Layla isn't particularly adept with managing strong emotions, neither is Keita particularly adept at feeling them. The time period in which he grew up, as well as his specific family circumstances, had all but ensured that he was a perfect expert at compartmentalizing his own feelings, tucking any negative emotions away to where they could be dealt with later in the privacy of his own room.
So even as she looks up at him, her voice and eyes soft, Keita's expression betrays none of the pain that he had felt that evening. Instead, he offers a small smile, a reassuring one as he squeezes her hand lightly. ]
That's very kind of you, [ he says, and he means it entirely. It's thoughtful of Layla to offer something like that, even though there was no possible way she could have known what Keita would go through. ] I'm all right, honestly. It's been more than a year now—the wound has faded, both literally and emotionally.
[ And the burst of feeling a few weeks ago, while intense, had been relatively fleeting. Keita no longer feels the ache of it, or at least, he only allows himself to feel the ache of it in the presence of a very select few. ]
I think I'd rather hear about yours, if that's all right. Assuming your experience was less unpleasant than mine.
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[ Not that he has a concept of "old Hollywood," per se, but he does know a little about being well-dressed for a night out. It's certainly clear that Layla knows what suits her and is willing to dress to her strengths, although Keita is far too polite to be obvious about his appreciation.
It feels a little odd to scoot back onto the cushion far enough that his legs extend in front of him, but once Keita leans back against the cushions he can't deny that the seat is... actually rather comfortable. ]
You're probably right about that, [ he says with a wry laugh. Keita hasn't opened the goodie bag yet, but he can see in his future-memories what it contains: a bottle of strawberry-flavored lubricant; a small bullet vibrator; and a silicone dildo. ] It is comfortable, though, if you'd like to relax a little. I promise no funny business unless you'd enjoy it.
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( it isn't like she's unused to being complimented, but something about it coming from him with all of his politeness drew out an equally kind response from her. they had shared quite a close moment previously and it felt nice to be useful for once, a feeling that had lingered with her for sometime [until the next event that left her feeling utterly useless].
as he sat down next to her, she kept a soft smile on her face as she watched him, giving him all of her attention. given what they were going to watch, she most likely would be doing this the entire time but she was sure he wouldn't mind too much.
hopefully. )
Well if you don't mind, I will get comfortable.
( and almost on cue she began to kick her heels off towards the floor below her, swinging and pulling up the long ends of her dress onto the seat. given the awkward position of how it sat on her and the more reclined position of the chair, she was left with her legs somewhat exposed but it didn't quite matter to her. she had never been too prudish unless the other person made her feel bad about it.
at his next words though, she hummed in curiosity before she leaned in a bit closer to him, laughing at his words. )
Funny business? Oh no are you going to throw a bucket of popcorn at the screen if the film really sucks?
( she knew what he might have been angling at but frankly when nothing but sex surrounded them, she was okay with things going in whatever direction he wanted. if keita just wanted to laugh it up and have a good time, being playful and silly at the ridiculousness of all of this, then she'd go along. if he wanted to do as the resort wanted from them, she might not turn him down. regardless, she was here for a good time. )
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Keita shifts to the side a bit to ensure Layla has room to situate herself on their shared chair-bed. Although he notes that the change in position has left her legs somewhat exposed, she doesn't seem too perturbed by it—and so Keita, reminding himself that this isn't 1884 and he doesn't need to be concerned so much with things like propriety, decides not to say anything either, although he's aware that there's a blanket draped over the armrest nearest him in case she gets cold. ]
Is that an option? [ he says with a smile, stretching an arm out along the cushion behind her. ] Do you know, I'm not sure I've ever had popcorn. Does it make a good projectile?
[ Around them, the lights dim, but Keita keeps his focus on Layla aside from a brief glance around just to see what the vibes are like. ]
Did you hold up all right over the last bit of excitement we had?
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( oh sweet and innocent keita— if he wasn't annoyed by her dragging him into that little sight seeing adventure from before in her suite, surely he wouldn't mind all the little ideas that were filling up her mind. she was well aware he was from a vastly different point in time, but truthfully she had imagined by now he'd have experienced quite a bit of modern life. knowing now that he had never even indulged in popcorn before well...
she was making a little list in her mind of all the things she wanted to show him and experience with him. she was just painfully childish like that. )
Well sure it does, and it's so light and fluffy it couldn't possibly hurt anyone if it fell on them! It'd be like soft little buttery snowflakes!
( there seemed to be almost a sparkle surrounding her as she said that. )
Ah as for that well.... a lot of weird things happened for sure. I got stuck in my suite with Shanks, I comforted a lot of people, apparently they were hearing voices in their heads and I—
( and that's where she paused briefly, a deep blush taking over her face. she hadn't really shared this with anyone beyond red but thanks to that emotional wave all of those under the heart 'suit' felt, she had come to the realization that she either liked women romantically or she found them sexually attractive. she wasn't too sure on her feelings either way and wasn't even sure if she should share that with keita but....
given she came from a period of time where that was still considered taboo and she had never really had many female friends, she wasn't sure how things would come across. so she opted to keep things vague. )
Had some personal revelations thanks to that weird wave of emotions I felt at the end of everything. Apparently it happened to all of us with 'hearts'?
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[ Indeed, over the months of his stay in the casino Keita has learned quite a lot about modern life—but certain things still require an introduction, at least, such as new food items. Popcorn just... hadn't been something that came up, it seems, although hearing it described as "soft buttery snowflakes" does make Keita wish he'd been introduced to it sooner.
He smiles at her explanation, pleased that for the most part, it seems to be positive. Of course, Keita is sure there were aspects of the previous month's horrorshow that would have been frightening indeed, but at least she came out of it with some good experiences too. ]
With Shanks? [ Keita says, warm. ] Well, there are certainly worse men to be stuck in a suite with. He strikes me as kind.
[ Comforting those who hear voices, too, is a noble use of her time. There's a moment there, too, where Layla teeters on the verge of a more thorough explanation, and for a moment both futures exist simultaneously in Keita's memory—but then she makes her decision, and whatever she was going to say melts away from Keita's awareness. ]
It did, yes. I'm a heart myself, in fact. [ And he definitely remembers that violent burst of emotion, followed by the excruciating empathic link that had taken several days to subside. ] I'm glad that you were unharmed, at least, however unusual or unpleasant the rest of the experience.
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( among other things because now he’s become an unwitting pet project for her. )
Oh yes he’s a good friend, it’s because of him I actually started enjoying singing again.
( she hadn’t been too open about her own personal life and circumstances back home with anyone but him. his gentle assurance and free-spirited way of approaching situations and life was the kind of influence she needed.
in fact it was partially the reason why she felt so inspired to show keita such delightful sights of tokyo last time. paying it forward perhaps. )
Oh? You are? So you felt that right? Wasn’t it so weird? No voices in my head like the others but that wave of emotions….it made me cry like a baby for a while. I guess I should get used to it right?
Someone told me this place…likes to mess with everyone from time to time, right?
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[ Their first conversation had to do with music, as Keita recalls. It was through that discussion that he came to know Layla was a singer, and to admit to his own relative inexperience as a pianist. It's nice to hear that she's enjoying herself again—Keita had sensed a bit of tension in her when it came to the subject of singing. ]
I did feel it, yes. It was... [ Keita pauses briefly, thinking of how to explain. Maybe he doesn't need to, since Layla experienced the same sensation, but it seems important that he choose the right words. ] I've only felt despair like that once before in my life. I hadn't hoped to repeat the experience.
[ It had felt like the moments before his death, relived. Keita sighs, then shakes his head briefly as if to dispel the thought. ]
That's true. Particularly for those of us with the hearts suit... I suppose the house thinks us particularly emotional, and enjoys playing with our feelings as a result.
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( she's still not sure how that worked exactly, her own frame of reference was the early yahoo message boards and email. still, she was finally feeling some level of enthusiasm and genuine interest in her own talents versus just a surface level dedication to it like she had in the past.
but as they spoke on about the effects of the previous event, she tuned in to him more closely, ignoring whatever sexual prolaticities were occurring on the screen behind them. )
Despair?
( now that was far different than what she had experienced. for some reason that wave of emotions had tapped into her own lack of friendships with women at the time, her budding ones here in the resort revealing to her she actually enjoyed women far more than she ever knew.
still they're talking about him and without a doubt she reached out to grab his hands, gently trying to comfort him. there was a time where she was called useless, selfish and unable to empathize with others but being here made her more gentle and mature. )
I think you're right. I didn't want to admit it but....I'm a very emotional person I'm just not...very good at handling it. I'm sorry that happened to you, what kind of despair did you feel?
( she's not trying to get too deep before a porno but here they were. )
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Perhaps we all felt a different sort of emotion, [ Keita muses. That's for the best—he's glad that Layla didn't have cause to feel pain like he felt.
He pauses briefly, with a small smile, and then says, ] Did I... mention to you before that I died in my own world, just before arriving here?
[ Although Keita can easily sort through decades' worth of memories of the future, he does sometimes forget what happened in the past. ]
I knew it was coming, and although I did all I could to prevent it, in the end it wasn't enough. I thought I had made my peace with it, but...
[ He pauses again. It's difficult to admit to these things, but Layla has been so open with him thus far that it feels only right that Keita make an effort to be open with her in return. ]
There was someone at home who I loved very much, and in the moments before my death I felt overcome by the knowledge that I would never see them again. And the house made me feel that despair again, I think. It was... not enjoyable.
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the revelation came as a surprise to her, mainly because she hadn't thought about those strange and painful real world expectations— it was enough to make her briefly think about death here in the resort. soon though her focus came back to his words and his very obvious pain.
with a nervous swallow on her end, she thought about what to say and how to comfort him. she wasn't the best at these things, she often ran away from her own troubling emotions and threw temper tantrums when things didn't go her way. when her own father died she remembered just crying for days on end and hiding. this was truly testing her maturity levels in a way. still she had come to like and respect keita in the time she had known him and with a soft tilt of her head, she finally spoke. )
I can only imagine it wasn't. I should have....come to see you, or I would have if I had known you were also suffering from the effects of that.
( she didn't want to tell him she had been too busy discovering her own bisexuality but— )
I just hope you weren't alone, that you had a good friend to help you through that. If you didn't, then I'm sorry. You can tell me more about it, I'll listen.
( despite where they were and what was playing in the background. )
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So even as she looks up at him, her voice and eyes soft, Keita's expression betrays none of the pain that he had felt that evening. Instead, he offers a small smile, a reassuring one as he squeezes her hand lightly. ]
That's very kind of you, [ he says, and he means it entirely. It's thoughtful of Layla to offer something like that, even though there was no possible way she could have known what Keita would go through. ] I'm all right, honestly. It's been more than a year now—the wound has faded, both literally and emotionally.
[ And the burst of feeling a few weeks ago, while intense, had been relatively fleeting. Keita no longer feels the ache of it, or at least, he only allows himself to feel the ache of it in the presence of a very select few. ]
I think I'd rather hear about yours, if that's all right. Assuming your experience was less unpleasant than mine.