Well first I have to actually follow through with this little plan I have, you know the one you saw on the network?

( she's still not sure how that worked exactly, her own frame of reference was the early yahoo message boards and email. still, she was finally feeling some level of enthusiasm and genuine interest in her own talents versus just a surface level dedication to it like she had in the past.

but as they spoke on about the effects of the previous event, she tuned in to him more closely, ignoring whatever sexual prolaticities were occurring on the screen behind them. )

Despair?

( now that was far different than what she had experienced. for some reason that wave of emotions had tapped into her own lack of friendships with women at the time, her budding ones here in the resort revealing to her she actually enjoyed women far more than she ever knew.

still they're talking about him and without a doubt she reached out to grab his hands, gently trying to comfort him. there was a time where she was called useless, selfish and unable to empathize with others but being here made her more gentle and mature. )

I think you're right. I didn't want to admit it but....I'm a very emotional person I'm just not...very good at handling it. I'm sorry that happened to you, what kind of despair did you feel?

( she's not trying to get too deep before a porno but here they were. )