[ He appreciates not having to talk too much about Jiang Yanli's death, not knowing how he'll be able to describe it as being anything other than his own fault. So, he's happy to move on, to keep playing.

There's a wry grin at Kabru's words because yeah, these questions sure keep hitting below the belt. What the hell!

He looks curiously at Kabru at his answer, and then a bit sympathetically. ]

I'm not sure what your life is like beyond here, but there was a point in my life where I wasn't sure what the next day would bring. [ And then he did, in fact, die. ] It can be a little hard to picture the future in that case.

[ . . . ]

... I'd like to settle down, with a friend of mine. Live a simple life together.