[ one ear flicks, ] I've wondered sometimes if you've deliberately been trying to deny me satisfaction for my entire life. [ in... perhaps a twisted way, in maybe a rather bitter way, in the way that texas wouldn't kill her and would just about run from her for years. avoidance possibly too understandable, unavoidable in itself. she accepts it, and it's strange, year after year could build up to a breaking point to an extent of acceptance.

having texas in the car, she could compartmentalize, could simply be indulgence above anything else. having texas anywhere else could be indulgence. at this point she doesn't think true satisfaction exists for her anymore. she could have texas' body but might never truly capture her. she'll accept it with the slight disappointment that texas doesn't even snarl at her for spanking her but, oh well. even that much is dissatisfaction.

she takes her card; ace of hearts. ]

Why would you look at that. We match.

[ she bumps shoulders with texas, her tail moving to wag against texas' own. despite herself and her decision, she can't help it if she feels a little happy just being close. having this much of texas is already far more than she'd ever imagined or deserved. ]