[ it's sure not a paradise. she'd probably never considered the idea of something so fanciful as a paradise in her life. maybe if she were to try, she could just barely haltingly imagine... something as completely impossible as texas smiling at her, texas taking her hand, texas touching her, texas telling her that she--
something so impossible and laughable. and something almost as impossible as having sex with texas. it may as well be the kind of dream she'd fuck herself to at night with the bitterness and sickness of her heart. and now that it might just happen all she could do is just... maybe just not think about it, how much she wants, or she'd just go insane. she just looks at texas for a longer moment, eyes half-closed, texas' hand in hers. if she thinks of how much she wants she'll go insane. how she might want to pull texas close and bite her mouth, shred her clothes, claw her bloody, just about tear her apart. maybe her fantasies could barely count as sex. ]
All right. I understand.
[ she holds texas' hand to her cheek, turns her face just so to brush her mouth over texas' palm. the gentleness that nobody would think of her, if she's not going to do something so crude as rip clothes right now, apparently. ]
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something so impossible and laughable. and something almost as impossible as having sex with texas. it may as well be the kind of dream she'd fuck herself to at night with the bitterness and sickness of her heart. and now that it might just happen all she could do is just... maybe just not think about it, how much she wants, or she'd just go insane. she just looks at texas for a longer moment, eyes half-closed, texas' hand in hers. if she thinks of how much she wants she'll go insane. how she might want to pull texas close and bite her mouth, shred her clothes, claw her bloody, just about tear her apart. maybe her fantasies could barely count as sex. ]
All right. I understand.
[ she holds texas' hand to her cheek, turns her face just so to brush her mouth over texas' palm. the gentleness that nobody would think of her, if she's not going to do something so crude as rip clothes right now, apparently. ]
Do you want to, right now?