( he understands the bigger picture now, of inexperience and naivety versus the rotten and cruel reality that not all intimate acts come with the gentleness of intimacy. it creates a different kind of discomfort in aventurine, something that makes him sure he's not the right person to be in this position, right now.
yet on the other hand. maybe it's the wake up call rude needs. the golden peacock doesn't value intimacy above the debauchery of sex. so it falls on aventurine, perhaps, to guide a soft pillow under his heart lest it falls and breaks against the cold hard floor. )
You want to know if it's wrong of you to feel the way you do, don't you? ( and that's what really makes him feel guilty, even through there's a smile on his face all too complicated to read.
even when he brings an all too gentle touch to rude's cheek, his fingers soft against his ear. )
Hmm~ It'd be too cruel of me to say yes, wouldn't it? Well. The answer is no, anyway. But the lack of reciprocation might hurt you. Are you sure that's what you want?
that's ok!! that's what makes him cute!!!!!!!
yet on the other hand. maybe it's the wake up call rude needs. the golden peacock doesn't value intimacy above the debauchery of sex. so it falls on aventurine, perhaps, to guide a soft pillow under his heart lest it falls and breaks against the cold hard floor. )
You want to know if it's wrong of you to feel the way you do, don't you? ( and that's what really makes him feel guilty, even through there's a smile on his face all too complicated to read.
even when he brings an all too gentle touch to rude's cheek, his fingers soft against his ear. )
Hmm~ It'd be too cruel of me to say yes, wouldn't it? Well. The answer is no, anyway. But the lack of reciprocation might hurt you. Are you sure that's what you want?