[ That gets a chuckle out of him. Joshua would hate to be seen as pathetic, but there's not much he can do at this time but receive this sort of reputation. These sorts of things can be upturned, at least. So— ]

Pray that it would be the last time you'll see me in such a state.

[ He makes a request, but it is more of a promise. One that he intends to keep for as long as possible.

Should his body give into his sickness however, he hopes that it won't be while anybody can see him. ]

What you did was rather heroic. You should be proud of yourself.