[ The moment she asks it, she can't help but feel like it's a silly question to ask in hindsight. From everything she's learned so far she should have known that it wouldn't be easy. Until recently life had always been kind to her. But even at its cruelest, she'd had friends she knew she could count on to look after her to some degree. A safety net. Something comforting.
She tells herself that it's fine. That this is just one other game she didn't want to play but has to if it means survival. The irony of that word is almost too much for her to grapple with. Even if she knows that she'll steel herself and rise to the occasion in her own way, even if she knows that this is truly just a game that she'll have to rely on herself for, it doesn't make her feel any less helpless in that moment. And that alone is enough to finally make her choke out a little sob which in turn opens the floodgate to tears that she'd been holding back since waking up here. ]
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She tells herself that it's fine. That this is just one other game she didn't want to play but has to if it means survival. The irony of that word is almost too much for her to grapple with. Even if she knows that she'll steel herself and rise to the occasion in her own way, even if she knows that this is truly just a game that she'll have to rely on herself for, it doesn't make her feel any less helpless in that moment. And that alone is enough to finally make her choke out a little sob which in turn opens the floodgate to tears that she'd been holding back since waking up here. ]