[ that's the roughest part of all. when they were just fighting, it was one thing- but the parts she liked? even after leaving?
she's still not sure how to feel about those memories. ]
There were games in the hotel. Eating contests, or truth or dare. That kind of thing. And the basement was for games that you couldn't show in public.
[ a deep breath. in, then out. she's not traumatized - is she? she doesn't feel sad or frightened, just. distant. maybe that's a part of it too. ]
One of the first ones was a scavenger hunt. They gave us a list of body parts and told us to find them. And they, uh... [ even like this, she doesn't sound upset. just... distant. recollecting a series of events without much thought about the issue. ] There was something in the air? A gas, I think. It made everything just sort of... Blur together. It felt nice. Nicer than most things.
[ she reaches up - taps just under her right eye. ]
I got out pretty lucky. An eye. A rib. Some blood, I think? It's kind of blurry. And Dan Heng- He offered me his arm. So we would both get out.
[ she remembers the way dan heng had looked underneath her. the way he'd cried out and writhed as she cut through flesh. the way his hips had bucked and he'd kissed at her neck. she's pretty sure she'll never forget it. ]
It was a lot of stuff like that. Fights, or deathmatches, or sex games. You know.
hoo boy. cw: violence/gore/eye trauma/dubcon/drugging/insanely fucked up sex all mentioned???
[ that's the roughest part of all. when they were just fighting, it was one thing- but the parts she liked? even after leaving?
she's still not sure how to feel about those memories. ]
There were games in the hotel. Eating contests, or truth or dare. That kind of thing. And the basement was for games that you couldn't show in public.
[ a deep breath. in, then out. she's not traumatized - is she? she doesn't feel sad or frightened, just. distant. maybe that's a part of it too. ]
One of the first ones was a scavenger hunt. They gave us a list of body parts and told us to find them. And they, uh... [ even like this, she doesn't sound upset. just... distant. recollecting a series of events without much thought about the issue. ] There was something in the air? A gas, I think. It made everything just sort of... Blur together. It felt nice. Nicer than most things.
[ she reaches up - taps just under her right eye. ]
I got out pretty lucky. An eye. A rib. Some blood, I think? It's kind of blurry. And Dan Heng- He offered me his arm. So we would both get out.
[ she remembers the way dan heng had looked underneath her. the way he'd cried out and writhed as she cut through flesh. the way his hips had bucked and he'd kissed at her neck. she's pretty sure she'll never forget it. ]
It was a lot of stuff like that. Fights, or deathmatches, or sex games. You know.