[ She scoffs, then fully turns her face away. Before she can stop herself, her meaner, deeply selfish side becomes more apparent than it ever has before. ]

So what? At least I would've gotten what I wanted.

[ The moment that's left her lips, regret swiftly sinks in. Bitterness has been building up in her for so long, it was only a matter of time before she involuntarily spit it out. Normally, she'd be quite shameless about that. Her needs have always come first.

Her face dips down, pressing against her legs. Why can't she be that shameless with him? ]

Sorry. I didn't mean that. [ Well, she did in the moment, but not now. Not as much, anyway. ] I don't know if things can be like they were. I don't know how to fix this.

[ Being a friend is so tempting, but she knows she'd want more. She always wants more. ]

All I know is...I can't control myself around you. Being together is only going to make things worse. [ She slightly lifts her head, wearily looking over to him. ] Not when I know you wanted to be more than friends.

[ Just like she does. ]