[As if you didn't make it sound like it was all a mistake. That's what would've come out if he hadn't but down his tongue.

Why couldn't she ever admit that she was the cause? Why does she keep initiating all those moments they had together, and then made it all out as if he's the one at fault? Misery leaks out on his face and voice, along with frustration.]

If I had said my goodbye to you, I fear that... It might be permanent.

[Or, is that what she wanted? For him to be permanently gone. To no longer be some sort of obstacle in her life. He couldn't even tell what she wanted from him. He thought he knew, but clearly he interpreted wrong.

Maybe he should've just read her mind? Shouldn't that be easier for him to know what she wanted? His own morals and principles get in the way of him doing exactly that.

And it seems that he's upset Monika again. Perhaps.... He isn't a good a friend as he'd thought.]

I wish to go back to how things were for us. For us to be friends again. [Not even as lovers. Just a friend is enough.] I just... Do not know how.

[If she wants to leave him still, then he won't stop her.]