Oh. Good! I means I did a pretty decent job, huh? Ahaha.
[ She joins him in the flushed cheeks department, smiling down at her notebook. Any other time, she'd probably go her usual route of faking confidence and acting as if this poem hadn't taken weeks of struggle to perfect. He makes it so easy to feel her true feelings with him, though. There's no need to hide behind a veneer of lies. And, well, hearing that he loved it...
Oh, that's a sudden hug. Her head pops back up with some rapid blinking. He was right about being affectionate when no one was watching, wasn't he? She's so lucky. No one else gets this but her. Her desire to cling to him, more than just physically, grows stronger.
It takes her a moment to digest his words, especially knowing it's coming from someone that's lived thousands more lifetimes than she has. After the kiss, her chest aches with a want that's softer than anything like they'd done earlier. She knows what it is. Still, she forces herself to deny it. ]
It's funny, really. I don't know why or how I got here. But...yeah. [ She shifts until she's curled up against him. Her fingers run over the words she'd just written. ] Most of my dreams have come true. I never thought I'd get to this point.
[ She's admitted what she's about to say to one other person. It's a lot harder to get out this time. ]
I told myself if all hope seemed lost, I'd...delete myself. I couldn't have gone on living like that for much longer. [ And with what she says next, she feels a level of discomfort that leaves her highly unsettled. ] All until I found the...person who gave me a reason to live...
[ And she was not in that person's arms. Was she losing sight of her goals? Was she already forgetting who she owed her continued existence to? So much for devoting herself the love of her life!
Abruptly, she closes her notebook and grabs a different one to look through. ]
Jeez. Talk about bringing the mood down! I'll find something happier. We don't need a dark cloud following us around all day!
[ Anything to get her mind off of the horrible feeling in her gut warring with the amazing one in her chest. ]
cw: suicidal ideation
[ She joins him in the flushed cheeks department, smiling down at her notebook. Any other time, she'd probably go her usual route of faking confidence and acting as if this poem hadn't taken weeks of struggle to perfect. He makes it so easy to feel her true feelings with him, though. There's no need to hide behind a veneer of lies. And, well, hearing that he loved it...
Oh, that's a sudden hug. Her head pops back up with some rapid blinking. He was right about being affectionate when no one was watching, wasn't he? She's so lucky. No one else gets this but her. Her desire to cling to him, more than just physically, grows stronger.
It takes her a moment to digest his words, especially knowing it's coming from someone that's lived thousands more lifetimes than she has. After the kiss, her chest aches with a want that's softer than anything like they'd done earlier. She knows what it is. Still, she forces herself to deny it. ]
It's funny, really. I don't know why or how I got here. But...yeah. [ She shifts until she's curled up against him. Her fingers run over the words she'd just written. ] Most of my dreams have come true. I never thought I'd get to this point.
[ She's admitted what she's about to say to one other person. It's a lot harder to get out this time. ]
I told myself if all hope seemed lost, I'd...delete myself. I couldn't have gone on living like that for much longer. [ And with what she says next, she feels a level of discomfort that leaves her highly unsettled. ] All until I found the...person who gave me a reason to live...
[ And she was not in that person's arms. Was she losing sight of her goals? Was she already forgetting who she owed her continued existence to? So much for devoting herself the love of her life!
Abruptly, she closes her notebook and grabs a different one to look through. ]
Jeez. Talk about bringing the mood down! I'll find something happier. We don't need a dark cloud following us around all day!
[ Anything to get her mind off of the horrible feeling in her gut warring with the amazing one in her chest. ]