[It's the first time Embry has shared the name of the man he is clearly so affected by.]
I understand the circumstances were initially different. I didn't know there were rules, either, before I arrived in this place. I wanted to be beaten, but I didn't know how to identify that want let alone seek it out. And the man who I wanted that from would have never given it to me the way I needed it. I was resigned to that. I knew he would eventually be with a woman, and they would have a family. It's what he desired most. He didn't even know you could be with a man that way.
It's okay. There's nothing wrong with liking how it feels to be punished.
Are you protecting him by hurting yourself? Why did you hand him off to someone else?
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Ash.
[It's the first time Embry has shared the name of the man he is clearly so affected by.]
I understand the circumstances were initially different. I didn't know there were rules, either, before I arrived in this place. I wanted to be beaten, but I didn't know how to identify that want let alone seek it out. And the man who I wanted that from would have never given it to me the way I needed it. I was resigned to that. I knew he would eventually be with a woman, and they would have a family. It's what he desired most. He didn't even know you could be with a man that way.
It's okay. There's nothing wrong with liking how it feels to be punished.
Are you protecting him by hurting yourself? Why did you hand him off to someone else?